Saturday, November 23, 2013

This too shall pass

So, I've not been sleeping very well.

Lots of worries going on.

I am good at pretending I'm not bothered when in fact, I am worried to death.

So here's the list of current worries, maybe if I put them down in writing, I can "Let go, Let God" and trust Him to take care of things.

I am worried about JC.  The motor in his truck is blown, he is taking too many college hours (18) and not getting very good grades, he needs to get a job, he wants me to co-sign for an apartment and I really don't think it's a good idea.

Jules is, well, Jules.  I don't think I will ever not worry about him.  He's working, he's getting his legal issues resolved, he's actually doing pretty good right now...that's what worries me.  Stupid, huh?

I worry about Jackie.  I know that her joining the Mormon church should be a good thing, I am continually trying to stay open minded about it, but it still bothers me, a lot.  It makes me wish I had never allowed her to go to church with Whitney as a child.  I didn't know any better back then, I didn't really know much about the Mormon faith.  I am grateful she has God in her heart, this is what gives me faith and keeps my mind open....maybe not wide open, but it's open...

Rob is spiraling down a path of obsession with his workers' comp case that was denied.  He is wanting to fly to Houston so a Surgeon he's never met, yet diagnosed him via video and phone conversations, perform a surgery that may or may not help his shoulder, because he thinks that in doing this, he will have "proof" that all the doctors he's seen here has lied and he can sue them.  I have absolutely no idea how to handle this.

So there you go, the top 4 reasons I don't sleep well, I smoke a couple cigarettes a day and have developed a taste for whipped cream vodka and cinnamon whiskey.

As my mother says, this too shall pass.

1 comment:

  1. Dearest sister,

    I am so sorry you are under so much worry. JC is a very smart young man. He too is under tremendous amounts of stress. Sometimes stress makes us thinki crazy thoughts and maybe that is the reason for the want of an apartment. Jules is doing great so let that worry go. I always say don't worry till you have something to worry about. Nothing to worry about with that one at the present moment. Rob is Rob what can you say. I have absolutely nothing to say on his situation because well I am kinda stumped on that one so I will just stay quiet on it. Now for you my dearest sister. your back, lack of sleep and taking everyones problems as your own is why you are such a worry wart. You have always been the type of sister/person that takes everyones problems as your own and tries to fix them. That is one of the reasons I have always looked up to you. You so need to take a vacation of any kind even if it's for a couple hours away from everyone including mom. Please do me a favor and try to do that. I love you so very deeply and admire you for all you do. PLEASE take care of yourself.

    Love You
    Lyn

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