Parenthood

I miss him.

I don't think I will ever forget the hurt he caused.

I don't know if I will ever forgive him.

But I miss him.

Beginning of the End....Start of the New

December 2, 2011

That is the date .
The date that was the beginning of the end.
The end of a toxic situation that went on for far too long.
It is also the start of a whole new beginning.
A fresh, new, wonderful, scary beginning.

I could not be any more proud as a mom and as woman.

She took the bull by the horns and even though the fear was almost paralyzing....she pushed through and I have no doubt in my mind that she will be even stronger, better, happier than she can even imagine.

March 14th is the final hurdle to jump.  I will be there, quietly giving my support, quietly cheering her on and sharing with her the sadness of the end of a life that she had known since adulthood.

My baby is an amazing woman and I could not even begin to express how incredibly grateful I am that God blessed me with her.

I look forward to the next 30 years watching her continue to grow, develop and love.

Trees, trees, trees and bushes

So I ordered some stuff from Directgardening.com

We have 3/4 acre of yard and hardly anything in it.

I needed to fill it up.

Directgardening.com had a 1 cent sale.

This is what I ordered:

(2) Lily of the Valley Trees

(6) Red Painted Daisy

(6) Rose of Sharons

(3) Shasta Daisy

(4) Old Fashioned Lilac Bushes

(2) Redbud Trees

(2) Flowering Quince Bushes

(3) Peacock orchids

(2) Spirea Bushes

(6) Flowering Shamrock

(3) Ranunculus

(3) Triplet Lily

(2) Weeping Willow

Beautiful, aren't they?  I was so excited when I ordered everything.

Then the order showed up in the mail!

 And this is what I actually received and planted:

(20) of these now stick up out of my yard in random spots

(24) of these

 So now there's a bunch of random sticks poking up out of the ground all over my yard and two trenches around the driveway light and mailbox. 

I sure hope everything grows into the beautiful tree/bush/flower that the pictures showed me.

Threes

They say bad things happen in threes.

Found out on June 7th that someone I grew up with committed suicide at Eastwood Park.

On June 9th, received a call that my nephew was killed in a head-on collision.

On June 11th found out that another friend's husband died of a massive heart attack.

Please let this be the "Three".

Too much loss, too much sadness.

Bob Griffith - 48 yrs old

Brandin Helton - 24 yrs old

Michael "Mo" Cross - 53yrs old

Mom

The move is done.  Her house is empty of all the things she had acquired over a period of 46 years.  I grew up in that house as did my sisters.  It was very hard leaving.  I kinda rushed mom out the door and into the car and left the house for Rob to close up.  I just couldn't slow down to give myself any time to think about it or the "ugly cry" would have gotten the best of me.  It's still hard to think about.  My first child spent her first 2 years in that house.  So many memories...

Boxes, boxes and more boxes

I have been unpacking boxes for 3 1/2 weeks now.  

I was getting a little excited that I could finally see the end of the tunnel of boxes. (There are only 6 left in the garage and 8 upstairs in JC's room)

Then I remembered, we are going to Dayton to move mom here with us.

She has boxes.

A LOT OF BOXES.

It will take a serious amount of cash to make me move again.

 

The Rapture

May 21st is, according to the Mayan Calendar, the day of the "Rapture".

I have a few big concerns here:

One, the bible clearly states that no one, not even the Son knows when this will occur.  Soooo, how did the Mayans know?

Two, it's always "tomorrow" somewhere.  I want to know what time zone this is actually for.

Three, I truly believe that the Mayans just couldn't fatham the world still being around this long and just stopped making the calendar.

I sure hope Saturday is not the end, I am far from ready to meet my maker and would appreciate some more time to prepare.